People Like Me

You know what breaks my heart? A lot of things, but one thing that really breaks my heart (or at least right now) is the fact that there are people out there like me. Ok that probably sounds weird, but let me explain.

First off, I'm not the best person in the world. I have anger management problems, I'm a jerk, I'm not really easy to get a long with, I'm just not the type of person you really want to be. I tell my friends not to let their kids hang around me because I don't want to influence them in any way.

Second, I've been through a lot of crap in my life. I've been depressed, suicidal, full of regrets, feeling unloved, feeling like your worthless, and just not so great. I honestly hate seeing people like that, and in those type of situations because that is something nobody should ever have to go through.

I've got a few friends that remind me of myself a lot. One of my friends I feel extremely horrible for because shes me in a different persons body. Literally my life story in somebody else. She went through a rough time and I helped her through it. The entire time I helped her through it my heart was breaking for her not just because of what she was going through but the fact that her situation was exactly like mine and I didn't want her to have to go though that.

My other friend has been recently going through some stuff that I have. She has stress and anger and friends that only are there or need her when they're having a problem. I know a lot of people go through that but I just can't help but feel horrible for her. I mean you know that friend that went through the rough time that I just talked about? Welp once things were going good (Or maybe I messed something up) But I got kicked to the curb with no warning at all.

I know what it feels like to go through crap, and I don't want anyone else to have to go through anything that I have. Every time I hear about it, my heart breaks and I think "Why? Why did this amazing person have to be just like me?"