VBS 2012 Day 3

Its day 3! Time has gone by so quickly, I only have 1 more day with these kids. Today one of our kids didn't come but we got a new one so that was good.

We had a lot of fun today. Bible study was good, they talked a little more than usual. Then snack time, thats always great. We had craft time after that, and they really like the crafts. Then movie time, which once again they were really shy, and us leaders had to answer most of the questions but that was ok. Last we had the game. Today was a water game, and at first they didn't want to play with the water but about 5 min. in they were soaking wet!

Its really good to see them come out of their shells. A lot of the kids are talking to each other, to us leaders, giving us high fives, and hugs, its really great! Today for no reason one of the little girls came running up to me and gave me a hug and her grandpa said to me "I think she's really warming up to you." It was just an amazing feeling to think that those kids are getting used to and trusting me.

Every day they have a new theme and todays was "No matter what people do trust God" and the kids never really echo the theme when they are asked what it was, but today I saw a lot of our kids say it so that was great! Its been amazing to see all of them grow over the past 3 days, and I really hope I see more of that tomorrow.

VBS 2012 Day 2

So its day 2 of VBS and its going great! The kids are a little more out of their shells than they were yesterday (They weren't super shy yesterday). Its kind of funny actually. During Bible Time they are kind of shy, during snack they are great, during craft they are great, during the movie time you can't even get them to say a word, then during game time they are all over the place!

They are really some great kids. All of them are starting to warm up to each other and us leaders. We watch this movie that I think the kids enjoy, and its about a Chipmunk that tells us no matter *Insert theme of the day* Trust God! This might sound really lame, but I think that movie is hilarious, and none of the kids do.

Anyway, its been a good 2 days, 2 more to go, and I know there is so much more to come!

VBS 2012 Day 1

This year I am helping out with Vacation Bible School for the second year in a row. This should be a surprise because of my love hate relationship with kids (I actually really love them...a lot). Once again I got the youngest group of kids, our group name is the Butterfly's (So cute right?!).

This year it is a group of 5, and all of them are girls! Its really great! They are hands down some of the cutest kids I've ever seen. At first they were super shy, but once we started snack and games they came completely out of their shells! Some of the kids in my group this year I actually had last year, so I can kind of predict what they will be like.

Once again its only the first day and I have already fallen head of heels for these kids. The excitement I have for the rest of the week is indescribable and not even funny. I love my partners, I love the kids, I love all of it! I'm so excited to see God work in these kids and hopefully in me and all the other leaders too!

Summer 2012!

So, its summer time and I'm very happy. Its actually been summer for about a week for me, but thats ok, I can still blog about it. I love the summer, not so much the weather but more the fact that I don't have to do anything but be lazy and hang out with friends. I want to start off by talking about what I've done so far this summer.

I'm only a week into summer and I've already: gone to the beach, spent more than 1 night at a friends house, went to a party, played Frisbee, gone swimming, stayed out late, invited friends over, and eaten countless Otter Pops. Tonight though, I stayed up late and looked back at last summer and how amazing it was! Hands down last summer was my favorite summer of all. I honestly don't know if any summer could be better than last summer, but you never know.

This summer I have a bit of a bucket list that I would hopefully like to complete at some point or at least cross off most things. Here is the list:

1. Go to the beach. CHECK! Ideally I would like to go at least once but we'll see how the rest of the summer works out. 

2. Go to the Mountains I like just going up to the lake and spending a day there. 

3.Participate in #impulseWednesday  I made up a day called impulse Wednesday, its one day out of the week (Wednesday) Where you just do something impulsive. 

4. Tone my arms. Yeah, I'm weak sauce and I would like to tone my arms this summer...

5. Get tan. Yeah, I'm pale too

6. Midnight Premire BATMAN HERE I COME!!!!!!! 

7. Bike Ride. My bike gang hasn't gone on an official summer bike ride yet! Must happen soon! 

8. Picnic. I've been wanting to go on a picnic, like a good picnic since March! 

9. Look At The Stars. Yeah, sounds lame but I really want to just hang out with friends and look at the stars. 

10. Sunset /Sunrise Either or would be totally fine, I just want to watch them with someone. 

11. Hang Out With Friends. This one is probably the most important one to me. All I want to do this summer is hang out with my friends as much a possible.I want to surround myself with people I love and people who love me, and just spend the summer being with them. 

I'm super excited to see how this summer goes. I'm going to have a complete list on one of those tab things up at the top of my page (right underneath my title) so to see what I have planned and what I have done, go and check it out. SUPER STOKED!!!! 

People Problem

I have this problem with people where when I start to get close to them everything falls apart. That has happened to me a lot lately in the past year and especially in the past few months. It seem like the people I love and don't want to lose the most are always the people I tend to lose. I'm one of those people that blames everything on myself so to me all of this is my fault, everything that has happened to make me lose them...my fault losing them is my fault, and I beat myself up for it. I want to stop losing people and part of me feels like I should just stop meeting people because I know I'll just lose them.

Church Visits!

Well, today I went and visited a new church and man was it an experience! Uhm if you didn't know this recently I've been a little out of my faith, and just kind of all over the place with it so I decided I needed to do something about it. I love my church, don't get me wrong, I love it but it just hasn't been the same lately and I haven't been growing in my relationship with God. So, recently I met some new friends and they invited me to church and I thought "Well since I have been kind of looking for a new church I could give this a try I mean I'll know people so that's good and maybe it'll help me."

Now, I go to a small church with a small group of people (Its a big day if we have 25 people there) and its good being small. I'm very close with all of them and I love everyone of them with all my heart but like I said, things haven't been the same. This church was HUGE like there were so many people it was a little overwhelming. BUT there was some good, actually a good amount of good.

I LOVE worship. That might come as a surprise because 1. I can't sing for the life of me and 2. I am a little ashamed of my voice and don't sing in front of people. I loved the worship at this church, it was loud, they were great songs, and everyone was super into it. I also have a bit of an attention problem so its really difficult for me to listen to and grasp long sermons (which is what the sermons at my church usually are) fortunately the ones at this church were short, sweet, got right to the point, and hit the heart.

I really liked this church, I did. I liked 1. the worship and 2. the short sermons. This was a good experince for me, and I think I might start attending it more.

Hope And A Wrecking Ball

This song completely describes me right now, both of them do. Please take a listen, they're really good songs, and this is a really good band . (Its not Relient K this time! Surprised?)

"Save My Life" By: The Sidewalk Prophets

"Tell me what I need to hear, tell me that I'm not forgotten"  

"Behind this smile I'm just like you. Afraid and tired and insecure"

"Right now I need a little hope I need to know I'm not alone" 

"Show me there's a God who can be more than I've ever wanted"

"If you look me right in the eye would you see the real me inside would you take the time to save my life?" 

"Wrecking Ball" By: The Sidewalk Prophets 

This is what I need right now 

"I need to rip out this old tree"

"I've tried so hard to pull them out on my own they take the best of me"

"I need a wrecking ball slamming inside my heart breaking me all apart. Tearing the old away. Killing the fear in me until I can finally breath." 

"You long for me to see when I get lost along the path you will fight to bring me back." 

"Take it all let me fall into your hands" 

I apologize for all these songs, but I have found so many songs that can describe me right now that I just had to share. 

Who I Am Hates Who I've Been

Well, this blog might be a little confusing and I want to apologize ahead of time for that. So lately I've been a little strange and confusing actually I've been off and on like that for probably at least 6 months. I've been in this weird  "phase" for a while and it can change me into a person that I'm actually not.

I get into these weird phases and I become am person that I'm not. I use this other me as a defense mechanism, its like my personal wall that people unfortunately think is me. I have become known as this "wall Chelsea" the fake Chelsea. I just don't want people to know who I am and where I am because then you'll see the "soft" Chelsea, the Chelsea that is in a place in her life that she is ashamed of and the sad state that shes in.

I can pinpoint the times in my life that have brought me into these phases, I can see the lines that I crossed, I can relive all of that in my mind, those are the moments I wish I could take back. I'm sorry that all of you know the horrible person I become and became when I get into these "phases" because that's not me. Unfortunately I'm living my life in that phase, as that Chelsea.

I'm sorry that its taking so long for me to show the real me, and become the real Chelsea. I never ever wanted to be this person, but I've been given multiple chances to get out of this fake Chelsea, I just need to start taking them. I'm sorry, I really am.

"Who I Am Hates Who I've Been" Relient K

" 'Cause I don't want you to know where I am 'cause then you'll see my heart in the saddest state its ever been. This is no place to try and live my life."

"I'm sorry for the person I became I'm sorry that it took so long for me to change I'm ready be sure I never become that way again 'cause who I am hates who I've been." 

"Who I've been only ever made me." 

Its just a really good song that REALLY kind of describes me right now. Take a really good listen to the lyrics and then you'll start to understand whats happening and why I'm this way.