People Problem

I have this problem with people where when I start to get close to them everything falls apart. That has happened to me a lot lately in the past year and especially in the past few months. It seem like the people I love and don't want to lose the most are always the people I tend to lose. I'm one of those people that blames everything on myself so to me all of this is my fault, everything that has happened to make me lose them...my fault losing them is my fault, and I beat myself up for it. I want to stop losing people and part of me feels like I should just stop meeting people because I know I'll just lose them.