Reflection of 2011

Well, it's been an amazing year filled with some of my highest highs and lowest lows. Lost some old friends, gained some new ones, became close to others, and not sure of where I stand with some of them. I have had a great time experiencing another year of life and never knowing what to expect during it.

Throughout this year I have learned many things.
1. That with the help of Christ and amazing friends, I can get through and do anything.
2. Friends come and go, and friendships with people can fluctuate
3. Bacon is no doubt about it the best food in the world.
4. School is like jail. They tell you what to wear, offer you an education, you can't leave until your times up, and you would rather be anywhere else but there. The only real difference is jail gives you free food.
5. Church/youth group is definitely my second home, and without it, I have no clue where I would be in life.
6. I think I might actually really like children
7. Life is full of twists and turns, and ups and downs, but hey if you think about it so are all the rides at Magic Mountain.

This year has been filled with amazing memories and amazing friendships. I thank God every day that he has blessed me with such amazing people that I honestly can't imagine my life without. My friends and youth group have become more than just friends they have really become part of my family. Each and every person that I have met and gotten to know this year will always have a place in my heart, even if they decide to leave my life, that spot in my heart will always be open in case they ever want to come back.

God has been so good to me this year. Yes, I have had tough times, but I know that there was a reason for them and he has helped me out of them. I've grown closer and closer to him over the past year, and am very thankful for that because I have noticed a change in me because of that. It just continues to amaze me at how he is not only working in my life but also in other peoples and I'm so blessed to be able to see that and even sometimes, hopefully, be apart of it. 

This has been one amazing year filled with so much stuff (good or bad? Both I guess) it just continues to blow my mind! I am extremely thankful for everyone I've not only met this year, but have become closer to. I'm very thankful for my friends, church, and family for helping me through this hectic year. I thank God everyday for blessing me with another amazing year, and helping me through it. 

Hopeful for 2012! I can't wait to see what highs and lows this new year brings me! (PS The London 2012 Olympics, no doubt about it will be a high! I've waited 4 years for these!). Happy New year to you all! Be safe and don't drink and drive!

Late: Christmas And Why I Celebrate it

I love Christmas with all my heart, it is truly one of my favorite holidays. I love the feeling and the good vibes you get from everyone at this time of year, they're all just so happy.

Now we do most of the big stuff on Christmas Eve with my family. All the aunts and uncles and brothers and sisters and cousins get together at my grandparents house and we spend time together and have an amazing home made meal! Its really a lot of fun to see the people that I only see about twice a year. I love my family and I love when we get together and hang out. (Although sometimes I do wish I could have gone to my church Christmas Eve service). But we get together and have a blast and get to see all the baby cousins experience Christmas.

Christmas at my house honestly is not that big of a deal. We don't celebrate all day, we don't throw massive get-together's with the family, and we don't spend all day opening expensive presents.You see, we actually do the exact opposite, we are very relaxed about it. We wake up around 9:30-10:00, calmly open a few gifts, watch some T.V. every year we go see a movie (This year it was Sherlock Holmes, very good by the way), and then we come home and relax, watch T.V. eat an amazing Ham dinner, and since it was on a Sunday this year I got to watch football! Very relaxed, and I love it because I get to spend time with my family.

Now if you don't know this, Christmas is a very important holiday, it was the day our Lord and Savoir Jesus Christ was born. Crazy right? Anyway, this is the real reason we celebrate Christmas, to celebrate the birth of the man, who only years later, would sacrifice his life on the cross for us, all of man kind, so that we could be free and cleaned from sin and have the opportunity to spend eternity with God our Heavenly Father. 


Please people, don't forget this holiday was set aside so that we can celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ. Happy holidays, hope they were great!

I Want Camp!

I know its Christmas time, and I should have a Christmas post up, but I'll do that tomorrow or something. What I really want to talk about is how much I freaking want winter camp! Every year my church goes up to winter camp for like 3 days, and every year I fall more and more in love with it. I mean I get to go away with some of my best friends, to a place where all we do is learn about and worship Christ. That just amazes me so freaking much! 3 entire days of games, camp food, hanging out with friends and fellow followers of Christ, praying, worshiping, and learning about Christ. 3 ENTIRE DAYS OF THAT!!! Does that not just make you the happiest person alive?!

I love it so much! Its an amazing feeling when you pull into camp, when you realize the only thing you have to do this weekend is be yourself and fall more and more in love with Jesus. When all your burdens left you back at home, when you see the chapel and you think "all this, all this is made for the worshiping of Christ, and I get to be apart of this." It just blows me away!

Every time I go up there, I get this thing I like to call a "Jesus High" Weird I know but that's what I call it. Its when you go somewhere like camp, or a christian rock concert or something big and amazing like that and you come away from it thinking "YEAH! Alright man I got this, I'm going to be a better Christian! Camp totally changed me!" and all that nice jazz. Unfortunately it doesn't always last, but each year I hope more and more that it does.

Anyway I love camp and can't wait until it finally arrives! Ah I miss it.

Evening Strolls

Today was a lovely day, I slept until noon (the most amazing thing ever), woke up and watched T.V.  and then around 4 went on an afternoon stroll over to my nearest Starbucks with a good book at hand, and hung out there for an hour. I must say, I love love love evening/night strolls.

I love walking around town in the evening as the sun is setting, and the crisp winter air is out, its just amazing to take it all in, to think, to be yourself. Ah I just love it! Now, I don't usually stroll because I am a very  lazy person, but I have done nothing with my holiday and wanted to get out of the house. Also I recently got a new C.S. Lewis book, and wanted to read that, (Huge surprise because I hate reading...a lot).

My favorite part of the day is early morning or late evening/night. I love it because the weather is crisp, there are less people out and about, and I love the lights, the street lights, the car lights, the porch lights, it just reminds me of the city. I love just wondering around town with a coffee in my hand, a nice sweater on, and flip flops (hey don't judge, my style is a mix of winter and summer comfort.). It gives me time to think, and relax.

I ended up sitting at Starbucks reading for about an hour, and wondering around town for about 30 minutes. I just love it, it's so relaxing. While reading and wondering I decided that the simple life is what I want. I want to live in a small town right outside a big city, if possible maybe on the coast, give me my bible or an amazing book, give me a warm drink in the winter, and a cool drink in the summer, give me a person to converse with, let me wonder around town for hours, and I will be content and happy.

So my evening consisted of that, a Starbucks, a book, and wondering around town (mostly looking at stores, and cute Christmas lights). Simple yet amazing.

You're Beautiful

You're beautiful, you really are. You're beautiful in so many peoples eyes but more importantly you're beautiful in Gods eyes. Thats something that I know everyone struggles with. Whether they think that they physically aren't beautiful, or aren't living up to certain standards, or are just struggling with fitting in. Everyone struggles with being "beautiful" at some point.

People struggle to be perfect, but news flash you can't be perfect. I hate to say it but it's true. There is, was, and, always will be only one perfect person that ever laid foot on this planet, and that man is Jesus. Why strive to be something that only one man can be? Perfection does not exist unless you are Jesus.

With that being said though, I want you to know that you are beautiful. You are so beautiful! God created you in the image of him (Genesis 1), and only beauty can come out of him. Beauty does not mean perfection. You are your own beautiful, don't be anyone else's. God created you as you, God created you beautiful! You are beautiful in his eyes!

"...The Lord does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart." -1 Samuel 16:7.


"Let the King be enthralled by your beauty..." Psalm 45:11.

Woah! God is enthralled by your beauty. God created you in his image and his image is beautiful and good! You are beautiful and good!

This song gets me every time, Mercy Me gets me every time. YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL! Don't you ever forget that!

I Am Here

Dear people, I am here. I am here to be an ambassador for Christ. I am here to show Christ through me. I am here to introduce Christ to the people who don't know him. I will not be pushy. I will not be a Bible basher. I will help you with whatever you need. I will be clam and content with you. I will show you Christ but not shove him down your throat, I'm giving you the option to be a believer, I'm not forcing you.

Thats all I want. I want people to know that I'm here, and if anyone has any questions about Jesus or Christianity, they can come to me. I may not know all the answers but I can try. I mean thats what I'm supposed to do, be an ambassador for Christ, and it makes me happy. It makes me so happy when people talk to me about Jesus or religion. Some of the happiest moments of my life are the moments when I talk about religion with both nonbelievers and believers.

I'm here for anyone who doesn't know Christ, and for those who do know Christ, I'm here. I want you to come to me, I want you to ask questions, I want you to know Christ. Please for those of you who know me, or even those of you who don't, feel free to contact me. I want to share Christ's love with you, and everyone else.

All I Am Is Yours

Oh my goodness I love worship music. It just amazes me that the men and women that write the worship music, can always know exactly what you want to say. The lyrics always hit home with me. I have a ton of favorite worship songs, but this one has been on my mind a lot lately. I know, it cuts off at the end, but Hillsong United's version is very long, but I do recommend you find the entire version and listen to it.

Crazy right? Isn't it just amazing? Ah I love it! I mean standing in front of God, giving yourself over to him, ALL of yourself over to him so that he can be in control because you know that when God is in control and the center of your life, things are going to be so much better than if you were in control. 

Woah! I mean that's my goal, that's what I want in life, for God to be in control. "So I'll stand with arms high and heart abandoned in awe of the one who gave it all, I'll stand my soul Lord to you surrendered all I am is yours."

Quick Visits And Amazing Friendships

Some of you may not know this, but recently my youth pastor Stephen, a man whom I love with all my heart,  moved to Utah. This week though he was back visiting for the holidays! No doubt about it, it was the highlight of my week, I've been looking forward to the day he came back to visit since the day he left.

Stephen means the world to me. Heck my entire youth group means the world to me. I can honestly say that I have no clue where I would be if it weren't for them. Sometimes I sit around and think "You know I really wish I was with my youth group right now. I think people think they are my only friends...Eh oh well."  I mean I have the most fun with them. God placed all of us together for a reason, and I think one of the reasons is for all of us to have people that we can lean on in troubled times.

I'm not much of an emotional person or I don't show it, but today that side of me came out, and the only reason I was ok with it was because I was being emotional around my youth. I saw Stephen and I ran to him, gave him a big hug, and I shed tears...tears of joy. Maybe a bit over dramatic, but you don't understand how much this man meant to me, how much he still means to me, and how greatly I have missed him.

I just can't get over the amazing people God has blessed me with. All these people from my youth mean more to me than they will ever know. My youth group, my youth pastors, and my church family will always and forever mean the world to me.

Thankful Thursday December 8th!

Woah I'm proud of myself, I've done it every week so far. Yeah go me! So this week has been a very strange one, very emotional, very crazy, and very stressful. I'm getting through it though, and the week is almost over. Yay!  So uhm I guess I will get started.

Emotions: I actually don't like emotions at all really. You know what I'm just going to be honest, I hate them. They always get in the way. The plus side to emotions though is that it reminds me that I am human, and I do feel things, and that its not my responsibly to go through them by myself, I have other people to help me and more importantly I have Christ.

Trust: Yeah, that's been on my mind a lot lately too. I have always had trust problems and it wasn't until recently, maybe less than a year, that I have started to open up to people. It takes forever for me to trust someone, and don't be offended if I don't trust you, its just who I am. Fortunately, over the past few months maybe a year, I have found a few people that I do trust with all my heart. Many are from youth group, some from school, but either way, I am very thankful for them.

The Holiday Season: Oh man I love the holidays so much! It is my favorite time of the year because people are in such good moods, and its the season of giving ah I just love it!

Planes: At this point in time right now, and in the next few weeks I am going to be VERY thankful for planes, you know like airplanes (am I the only person that pronounces it like Arrow-Planes?). Airplanes are so very important right now because those big hunks of metal are transporting many of my friends and "family" over to me during this holiday season! The people in my life that have recently left, are coming back to visit and I can't wait!

Youth Group: I told you they would be on here every week. I just can't get over how much they mean to me. It continues to amaze me that God has blessed me with them and I can honestly say that I have no clue what I would do without them.

Prayer: This is my last  one I promise. Prayer is such an amazing thing isn't it? Its like you are talking to God...Well you basically are. For me it's just so relaxing and comforting to know that at any point in time I can just pray to God, breakdown and pray to him, and he will listen. Woah crazy right?

Ok so lets see what we have learned. 1. The week is almost over and I'm so happy about it. 2. Emotions are the worst thing ever invented but without them we wouldn't realize that we need to lean on God. 3. Trust is a difficult thing to develop, but sometimes its a necessity and in time it comes. 4. This holiday season is my favorite, and its hard to explain why. 5. I thank The Lord for planes and their ability to transport important people to and from me. 6. My youth group will always be on these, and they are very important to me. 5. Prayer is a powerful thing, you should try it.

Thankful Thursday December 1st!

First let me start off by saying how happy I am that its finally December! December is one of my favorite months, not only do we get to celebrate Christmas, but throughout the month of December there is this amazing mood that seems to come over everyone. Ah I just love it! Anyway, Thankful Thursday. Let me just say that this week has been a crazy one, and there are so many blessings in disguise.

Youth Group: You will probably see this on almost every Thankful Thursday post because I am so very thankful for them! My youth group, as I have said before, means the world to me. They are like my family, really. These people are hilarious, fun, and amazing children of God. They are always here for me in hard times, and when I'm struggling, and they seem to know when that is. It just amazes me that I have them in my life.

The Random Struggles In My Life: God likes to do that to me, he likes to put random struggles in my life, and I'm not sure why, but I know there is a reason for it. "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Romans 8:28 Amazing, just amazing.

Understanding Math: This was for sure one of the big highlights of my school week. For the first time in my ENTIRE LIFE, I actually somewhat understood what we were doing in math. You know what this means? Thats right, I'm going somewhere in this world!

That God is ALIVE And Is Working In My Life: Yes, God is alive! No, he's not dead! Even better, he's living inside us! Whenever I think of this, I always think of that new Newsboys song, "Gods Not Dead (Like a Lion)" (Huge fan by the way) When it says "My Gods not dead he's surly alive he's living on the inside roaring like a lion" Ah I love it! The Holy Spirit, God, he's living inside me! "And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another advocate to help you and be with you forever-the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him not knows him. But you know him, and he lives with you and will be in you." John 14:16-17 Crazy isn't it?! Oh man it just blows me away!

Amazing some of the things we can be thankful for. Somethings are obvious, while others may be in disguise. Either way, we should be thankful for them. God is good, God is oh so good!

Please enjoy this amazing Newsboys song. Oh I love them so much. Shout out to one of my good friends who is so in love with Michael Tait!

Rude Mood

Lately I have been in a bit of a rude mood. You know one of those moods where you are angry and a jerk to everyone, and you come home and think, "Wow, I was a total ass today." Welp I've been in one of those moods for a really long time, and it's upsetting me.

I've been taking my rood mood and anger out on people, and not only is it affecting me, but its affecting others as well. I think its breaking friendships, and its breaking me too. I've always had anger problems, but I started to learn how to control them, and right when I was doing fine BOOM something happens and they come back. I have been feeling horrible because of how often I have been taking things out on people.

I don't know what has come over me lately, my anger and emotions seem to be getting the best of me. I hope that people can be patient with me while I try to figure out why its happening, and will be patient with me while I try to fix it. I hate being a jerk, I honestly do, its the last thing I want to be towards someone.

Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful. 1 Corinthians 13:4-5. That is the definition of love. I love my friends, but by being rude, I'm obviously not showing it.

T.G.I.A.D

You know that saying T.G.I.F Thank God It's Friday? Well not only do I love it, but it also inspired me to come up with another saying, T.G.I.A.D meaning Thank God It's Another Day. Get it?! I thought it was nice. Anyway, I thought it was lovely, and it seems to be one of the only things that keeps getting me through the day.

I mean think about it. God chooses to give us, unworthy sinners, another day on this planet. Thats not even the best part though, God doesn't think we are unworthy sinners, he thinks we are holy and blameless! Isn't that just so amazing?! It blows my mind, God chooses to give us life, but he doesn't want us to take advantage of it, rather than just doing everything we want, he asks us to show him, Christ, through us. Not that bad right?

It just amazes me, that he continues to give us life, and the least we can do is show others his love and grace. I don't know, it just kind of blows me away. T.G.I.A.D!

Thankful Thursday, Thanksgiving!

A lot of people I know who blog do this thing called thankful Thursday, and it kind of keeps us in check to be thankful more often, so I've decided that I'm going to start to TRY to do thankful Thursday every Thursday. I figured that today, Thanksgiving day, would be the best day to start.

There are a lot of things that I am thankful for, and I won't say them all, and I won't go into great detail, but I'll give you an idea of some of the things.

Family: Family is HUGELY important to me. I have a bunch of different "families" not just immediate or blood related that I have been blessed with.
     *Immediate/Blood family: I love my family with all my heart, they are the only people that have been with me from the start. Of course like all families we don't always get along, but I think that's the point of having a family.
     *Church/Youth Family: These people are a huge factor in my life. They are some of the most amazing people I have ever met in my entire life. I don't count them as just my church, or just my friends, they are truly an extension to my family. Sometimes when we pray we say, "Lord thank you for not only letting us gather her and worship you, but thank you also for the amazing people and the closeness of this amazing family. We are truly blessed. Amen"  Or you know things along that line.
                                     Family, they are amazingly important!

Friends: Oh goodness I love my friends. Some of them have been with me from birth, some of them I have just recently met, but all of them mean the world to me.
     *School Friends: I have a bunch of school friends, but recently I have found a group that I absolutely  love! They are the funniest people at school, I'm positive about that. They are just amazing people. I am extremely happy that I found them.
     * Church Friends: Well they aren't just my friends, they are my family.

God: I mean that pretty much sums it up. God is God, always has been, always will be. God gave us everything that we should be thankful for. My faith means the world to me, and without it, I may not even be here today. Christ is just amazing I mean there is no way for me to express how important Christ is to me. My mind is blown just trying to think about it! I mean God, sent his only son Jesus to die for us so that , ALL, did you get that?! ALL, every single one of our sins could be forgiven! Also so that we can be saved by GRACE  did you get that too?! GRACE, NOT WORKS! That is how we are saved. Not only are we forgiven and saved but through Christ we are given the opportunity to spend ETERNITY with God, our one and only Heavenly Father, our Creator, The Creator Of The Universe! Does that just blow your mind?! That is God for you, and that is something we should super thankful for.

There are so many other things that I am so thankful for, but I figure this post is long enough as it is. I just am so blown away by everything I am blessed with, people, things, opportunities, everything, it just blows my mind. I just wish everyone reading this a Happy Thanksgiving, or if you don't celebrate Thanksgiving, I wish you a very Happy Thursday, and a very happy rest of the week! 

Brick By Brick

Lately I've been having some troubles with who I've become..Or well not who I've become but really who I haven't become more like the Chelsea I haven't shown. I have built these walls to keep myself in and others out of not only my life, but also my mind and emotions. Lately though, I have found that this is not a good idea, those walls that I built throughout my lifetime, are not only causing me pain, but also others too. I have put up so many walls trying NO thinking that they will help protect me but in reality I have found that they are just hurting me more and more.

The thing about walls though is that I can't really just take them down right away, it takes time, I have to remove these walls brick by brick, stone by stone. I want people to see the real Chelsea but I'm afraid.

These walls, they are affecting me in ways that when I built them, I never thought they would. I built these walls protecting me and others from a person that I didn't want anyone to see. Unfortunately now because nobody is seeing past these walls, its effecting me emotionally.

Walls, I have to get rid of them slowly, brick by brick, you just wait and see.

Winter Jam!

So, Winter Jam came to my town recently and it was an amazing experience. For those of you who don't know what Winter Jam is, Winter Jam is a concert with a bunch of Christian bands where you can come and worship Christ with thousands of other people and just have an amazing time. Like all other Christian concerts, I went with my youth group. We always get there early to wait outside in line. We think its a lot of fun, and use it as bonding time.


We got in early and for free because we volunteered. Mega plus! Not only did we get fellowship and worship, but we got to show our love of Christ by volunteering! We helped volunteer with Holt International where you can sponsor a child for $30 a month. It was an amazing opportunity.

We finally got in, pretty much got VIP treatment because we got in early, and just hung out until the concert started. When it finally did it was amazing! There were so many amazing bands, and so much love in the room of over 7,000 people. It was the most amazing feeling ever when the bands would stop playing and turn the mic. on the audience and we would just sing, and pour our hearts out.

I love these concerts, its a way for me to pour my heart out to Christ, and just worship him. I come away from these types of things with what I call, "A Jesus High" I'm sure all of us know what that is. But I just walk away from these things so happy, and so in awe of God, and the worship just is the most amazing thing ever. I thank God for these amazing opportunities he gives us.

Somewhat Content With My Evening

I haven't had a very good week, been kind of in a funk, have had many tests, and I got pooped on by a bird. Tonight though made up for it, or well somewhat made up for it.

I spent a lovely evening alone which I hadn't done in a while, and I must say that I loved it. Plus that wasn't the only thing that made me happy, I had Bacon!

Yes, bacon oh I love it so much! I've decided that if you gave me a Coke, and a plate full of bacon, I will love you forever. Anyway, the bacon was delicious, and I tried to fry up potatoes but it didn't really work, but hey I got potatoes covered in bacon grease, that's pretty good.

I still have homework but I probably won't do it. Lovely evening I must say.

My Biggest Fear

We all think about what our biggest fear is correct? I hope so because sometimes that's the only thing on my mind. I've been through many fears; spiders, losing my memory, and eating Styrofoam. Most recently though my biggest fear is that I don't show my love for people enough.

I'm afraid that people don't know how much they mean to me, how important they are to me, or how much I love them. I don't want anything to happen to me, or them and not have them know how important they are to me and how much I love them. I tell them that every day, and I try to show it as much as possible, but I never know if I do, or if they even realize it.

Anyway, the point of all this is that I want to make sure that people know how much they mean to me, and how much I love them. I'm afraid that I don't show it, but hey, they only thing I can do is continue to show it, and I must say that I am completely fine with that!

I Want To Be

I've never really thought about what I want to be when I get older, I don't like to think about the future, or even the past, but recently I have thought about who I want to be. You see, there is a difference between the 2 of those, or in my mind there is. What you want to be to me is like a job, or a profession; who you want to be is more internally, the kind of person you want to be. Make sense?
As I grow, I want to be...


A Friend. I mean yes, that's obvious, who doesn't want to be a friend, but I want to be a real friend. All of us have those fake friends that come in and out of our lives, and are just fake. With me, I want to have a real friendship, be one of those friends that are here all the time no matter what. When I go into a friendship, I'm in it for the long run.

A Christian. I am a Christian yes, but I don't want to be a fake Christian. I want to be one that shows their faith through themselves, and their actions. I want to be that Christian that everyone knows is really a Christian. I want to be an ambassador for Christ!

A Listener. I want to be that person in peoples lives that listens, and I mean really listens to them. I want to be that person that people talk to, that people can trust. I want people to know that I am here, and my ears are wide open.

Myself. One of the things I really want to be is myself. I want to find myself, and who I want to be, and what I want to become. I want to be comfortable with myself, and who I am. I just want to be me!

Grace and Dodgeball

Youth team! Go Orange Crush! 

Today, we talked about grace at church, and to me its one of the most amazing things in the world. We defined grace as: "getting what we don't deserve." Crazy isn't it? Christ gives us so many things we don't deserve. He gives us unconditional love, he gives us all the things we have, and he gives us freedom from sin. We really don't deserve any of that due to the fact that we are sinners, but Christ sent his son for us so that we can live eternally with him. Do we deserve that? In my mind, we don't, but he gives it to us anyway. It's just so amazing!

Youth leaders team!

Now every year my church puts on this thing called Dodge For Dinner, and we all donate money/food so that we can feed the less fortunate, and then we play dodgeball (I put it as 1 word, but I think it can be 2). This was our 2nd Annual Dodge For Dinner tournament, and this year the youth group had 2 teams! Unfortunately both our teams lost, but that gave us an excuse to play more dodgeball so that we could get better, plus we had a blast and made some pretty awesome shirts "You can dodge a ball, but you can't dodge Jesus!" So blessed to have so many amazing people, and so many amazing opportunities!

Put on a Happy Face

 Do you ever just slap on a smile and continue with your life, but deep down you are breaking? I honestly don't know why I ask because nobody actually reads this and if we face the truth, all of us have done this at some point.

It's that feeling that you need to put on that happy face for everyone. Unfortunately you are never satisfied, and you still continue to break more and more. The fact of the matter is yes, you can put on that happy face, but it won't get you anywhere. You will still continue to be breaking inside, you will still continue to feel like crap, and none of that will actually change unless you get to the root of the problem.

People don't like getting to the root of the problem because it brings up so many things that they don't want to think about. Honestly, if you don't get to the bottom of how you are feeling, nothing is going to change, you are still going to have, that sadness, and loneliness, or whatever other emotion you are feeling.

You can only slap on a smile for so long until you realize that it's fake, and not working. The only way to deal with the problem is to get to the bottom of it, no matter how hard it might be. Just remember that you don't have to do it alone, and you are always, always loved.

"But I am like an olive tree flourishing in the house of God; I trust in God's unfailing love forever and ever." Psalm 52:8 

Oh Anger

Welp, apparently I haven't blogged in a while and some of my dear friends are getting upset so I had a few learning experiences today that I thought would be good to share.

I have anger management problems, I always have. Lately though, my anger has started to get the best of me and unfortunately it becomes violent. I had a few of these anger/violent outbursts today.

The first one was, sadly enough, at church. I love my school, and my school athletics and I support them and am proud of them no matter how good or bad they are, but lets just say we aren't doing to well this year. Anyway, I was sitting at church minding my own business and one of the students brought up how my school lost to their school which made me very angry so I picked up my chair and threw it. A horrible thing to do I must say weather in a church or anywhere else please just don't do it!

The other situation was when I came home from a lovely afternoon with some friends (we saw Footloose FYI  its a very good movie). Any who, I came home and right away, I got in a fight with my brother and that got violent too but I left before I got too violent. Thank goodness I have some amazing friends that I am able to call to help cool me down, thank you guys very much.

In other words I need to learn how to control my anger or else I will end up with a bruised thumb, from throwing a chair at church, and a very nasty meal, from not being home but instead going on a walk to calm down.

My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry, because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires. -James 1:19-20.  I really have to work on that.

Sparked An Interest

Lately I have found that some specific people around me have become interested in Christ, which to me is the most amazing thing it the world. I love Christ and everything he is doing in my life, and I love to see that in other peoples lives too.

Recently a dear friend of mine has really started to grow in her relationship with Christ. It's amazing to see how much she has changed and who she is starting to become over just the past year. I love seeing Christ work in her life, but by working in her life it has effected me and worked in my life too, let me expand.

My friend has really started to open up to me about her relationship with Christ and has started to come to me with some questions about Christ and all that good stuff, which is amazing! By coming to me, and talking to me about it, it has impacted my relationship with Christ too, it has encouraged me to grow closer and closer to him.

I love love love when people talk to me about Jesus, I mean I know I don't have all the answers but it is truly one of the few things in life that makes me legitimately happy. I love seeing peoples curiosity about Christ grow, and I love seeing how Christ works in others lives as well as mine. Gah it's such a blessing!

Love Fest

So I read my friend Jenna's blog  and it kind of talked about how we never know when the end of our lives will come. I mean think about that show 1,000 Ways To Die, we literally are exposed to so many deadly experiences and it is a HUGE blessing to get another day of life.

Well that got me thinking about me being a clumsy person and how it is literally a miracle that I am still alive and how if anything were to happen to me I don't want to leave without everyone knowing how important they are to me and how much I love them.

This made me decide to write letters to everyone who is important  to me and to start showing people the love that Christ shows me. Anyway, some of my friends liked it but some interpreted it wrong, one of my friends thought I was suicidal which I am not FYI, in her defense though she did only skim it.

I just want all my friends to know that I love them with all my heart and I am so so blessed to have them in my life, they are amazing people. It has to be a crime to know such an amazing group of people and to love them so much. Gah I'm so blessed!

Strange Excitement Regarding The Book Of Mormon

OK for those of you who don't know; I am a Christian, and have been a Christian my entire life. Although, it wasn't until recently that I started to really dinging into my faith, who I am, who Christ is, and what I believe. Another thing you should know is that I love exploring other religions and comparing them to my faith, it really gives me more confidence in what I believe, and it also comes in handy in case I ever have to defend my faith.

Out of all the religions in the world, my favorite to learn about is Mormonism, or The Church Of Jesus Christ Of Latter Day Saints (LDS). I find it very fascinating at how they are so strong with their faith, but all at the same time my heart aches for them. They truly believe that they are a Christian denomination which in reality they are not. Please don't get me wrong, I love Mormons, they are, in my opinion, some of the nicest people in the world, and I am jealous of how well they know their religion and what they believe. Unfortunately they are being lead down the wrong path, and later I will give some insight on why.

Now, not many people know my obsession with learning about the LDS religion, but out of all the luck, one of me Mormon friends came up to me and handed me the Book of Mormon and asked if I would read it. UH YEAH HELLO I WILL READ IT! WHY HAVEN'T YOU ASKED ME BEFORE? I HAVE BEEN WAITING MY ENTIRE LIFE FOR THIS!

I am super stoked to start reading it, digging into the comparisons, and hopefully be able to update you guys, and give you a little more insight on all this.
*(I don't want this to offend anyone really I don't. I would love to give you guys some updates on how far I'm coming, some comparisons of their beliefs and the Christian beliefs, and maybe even let you know how their production that they also invited me to goes.)

Random Friends

You know what I love? I love the fact that you can get a group of people that you never would expect to hang out together to actually hang out, and have the most fun of their life. I think that sums up my life pretty well.

Everyone that I hang out with, and get together with is a group of people that you would never expect to hang out, but we do and we have a blast! It's funny because we walk into a restaurant and everyone gives us these weird looks like, "What the heck?! Those kids don't belong together." But then they see us interact and it all makes sense. The people I hang out with we all interact kind of the same, we make fun of each other in a loving way, and are really easy to get along with which is great!

I love to compare us to a puzzle; separately it doesn't look like we fit together, but when you get us all together we seem to fit perfect. I love my friends with all my heart and don't know what I would do without them.

Fun Times Die Quickly

Answer me this: Do you ever have an amazing day, or weekend, and then right when you get home it ruins it?
Well that seems to happen to me all the time. The most recent account was actually today. I had a great Friday like most people do, I was partying like I usually do on Friday nights. Then I came home to an angry and hectic house.

Now don't get me wrong, I love my family but we get overwhelmed and angry pretty easily. The second I walked in, my day was ruined; heck even before I walked in I knew it was going to be ruined. I don't know why this happens but I think it should stop because I want my entire weekend or day to be good, not just a portion of it.

Bacon

Yes, bacon. I bet you are thinking, "how is this girl supposed to write an entire blog post about bacon?" Well, I'm going to show you.
Bacon, its my one true love (other than Christ). I have this weird obsession with it. Do you remember when Denny's had their bacon menu? Well I do, and it was my goal to go get bacon pancakes. Sadly enough though, I did not end up getting them which was the saddest day of my life, I literally cried.  I love bacon with all my heart so I wrote a poem called:
                     Bacon
Bacon oh bacon, my heart longs for you
I don't know if you know this but you should be a food group
screw the bread, forget the fruit, you should be at the bottom so that I can fell happy eating you
I know you contain fat, and a lot at that, but I will always always love you
please don't change, stay your fat, salty, and greasy self because that is how I love you.


That is my bacon poem, and that my dear friends is how you write and entire blog post about bacon.

A Little Bit Of Everything Summed Up Into One Post

Ok first of all, I'm new to this blog site so please keep that in mind. I'm still trying to deal with the fonts, the images, and the making it pretty. I did have a blog before this but I decided it was way to difficult to transfer all my previous posts so if you want to read them, here's the link: http://chelseaann.posterous.com/ but I will not be using that one any more. I just want to get that out of the way and get to the thing I really wanted to talk about. The real good stuff: 
There are these people, these people in my life that I have been so amazingly blessed with, and these people are my friends. I have 2 sets of friends that I am super close with, my youth group, and my friends at school. Both groups mean the world to me, and I can honestly say that I have no clue what I would do without them. Each day I spend with them, I fall more and more in love with them. I am just so blown away with the fact that me, a socially awkward, loud, and well I'll admit it, obnoxious person can be surrounded by so many amazing people. I thank God everyday for them and have no clue where I would be if I wasn't blessed with them. Gah, they are amazing!