Letting go is one of the most difficult things you can ever do (in my opinion) and something I am horrible at. If you know me, you would know that I really can't let anything go. I have a tenancy to hold grudges its something that I honestly don't recommend doing. I also keep a lot of junk, things like old letters that friends have given me, I just I can't throw it away, if you tell me to keep it forever, I will. The biggest thing I can't let go of is friendships, and I mean real friendships, the type of friendship where you were close with a person, where you trusted them with a lot, you know, those real friends.
I'm in that situation right now, the situation where you need to let go because the other person has, but you just can't bring yourself to do it. I just can't do it! Letting go is different than giving up and not caring, letting go is just I don't even know exactly what it is, but I will always care. This friend means a lot to me, but now that I know what the situation is, it gives me more proof that I need to let go. I've realized that I care about this person more than they care about me.I like to think that maybe at one point they cared about me almost as much as I cared about them, but they've let go of that and I haven't yet. Thats what keeps dragging me down, I still care more than I should, its become a one person relationship, and those go no where. We've been through a lot, and I've trusted this person with everything (and that doesn't happen often) but I need to let go, I wont EVER stop caring, but I will let go and realize what we don't have.
Chelsea, I seriously love you! And your blog! Lke you have no idea. You always seem to post things that I'm going through or thinking... you are amazing. About a year or so ago, I started to grow apart from my best friend. Well, actually, he grew apart from me. I was so upset and frustrated and mad! I didn't know what I did wrong.. he just left me. I was honestly depressed for a good three months and I didn't speak to him. About a month or so ago, he apologized to me out of the blue. I didn't know what to think, but I forgave him and we moved on. Now? Things are picking back up. We're starting to get back to how we used to be. Granted, I am a bit more hesitant, but it's like that quote... "If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it dosent, then it was never meant to be." Obviously me and him are meant to be friends. I'm glad I figured that out, though, before I lost him completely forever.
ReplyDeleteI'm sure everything will work out! I know for awhile I didn't believe that, but now? I do. I definitely do.
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Uhm I don't think you understand how much I love you! Seriously, I know I don't tell you that but I've always freaking loved you! People mention you and I'm like "Oh, Brie? Yeah, I love her" Seriously though you're freaking amazing! Thanks for this, I know things will turn out the way they are supposed to, whether I get this friend back or not, if it was meant to be it was meant to be, you can only do so much. Thank you so much for everything! Love love love you!
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