So this week a couple of my friends and I made a pact to be more positive. Now if you know me, you would know that I can be a bit of a Negative Nelly. I've always been told to turn a negative into a positive, but I've always struggled with that. I've been thinking back a lot lately, and going through all my years of school, going through all the negatives, I have found a lot of hidden positives.
Sunday School: Sunday school was the first school that I went to. Back then it was a negative. I had to wake up early, spend time with kids that I didn't know very well, and learn about some guy named Jesus and at the time I was convinced he was a zombie. Little did I know, this Jesus zombie man was the most important man in my life, he was my God and Savior.
Preschool: Hated it, just hated it. I went to a Christian preschool, still thought Jesus was a zombie, and only had one friend. Once again I didn't know that this friend was going to be one of the people that helped bring me out of the darkest time in my life.
Elementary School: Once again didn't like it. I wasn't very popular, didn't have very many friends, struggled with grades, and just didn't like it at all. I had left the church by the 3rd grade, and just hated school. Again, these next few years are years that will change and influence me for the rest of my life.
Upper Elementary School: This was the hardest time in my life. By the 4th grade I had lost a lot of my friends, thankfully I made new ones, I was struggling with myself and who I was, I went through many years of depression and suicidal thoughts, and just struggled in general. The great thing about it was remember those friends from preschool? Well they came back into my life and brought me back to church.
Jr High School: Jr high I still struggled with my depression and suicide, but those were the years that I came out of it. Those were the years that I figured out who I was, what I wanted, and who my real friends were. That was the time that I grew closer to my friends, but more importantly my faith developed, and I became a strong believer in Christ, the man who saved my life.
High School: I still struggle, I really do, its still difficult but coming out of all those negatives, knowing that hopefully I've been through the toughest negative I'll have for a while gives me the confidence to get out of all my other negatives. I'm blessed with amazing friends, an amazing church, and an amazing relationship with Christ.
I guess what I'm trying to say is life's full of negatives, and you'll always have them, but somewhere in the negative there is always a positive, you may not realize it at the time, but later on you will.
"Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you." 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
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