On Demand Revolution!

The On Demand revolution has impacted society and myself in ways only imagined just a few short years ago. Education, access to information, entertainment, and social interaction has changed significantly. In fact, much of what we do each day is directly tied to On Demand media.

For example, internet access to TV, movies, books and social media video has allowed me to read the best books and watch my favorite shows, movies, and videos on my own time, not on broadcast time. I can then better schedule my homework, volunteer and leadership activates.

My classroom is enhanced by On Demand media. The content is much richer than just a text book. The teacher can access up-to-date information and we can virtually travel to anywhere in the world. Classrooms can even talk live to astronauts in the space station. Some students can even attend school using on-line classes. Studies indicate that classroom learning is enhanced with On Demand media due to the fact that many students of my generation learn best through visuals and audio.

On Demand media also lets me search and find more and better information for my school reports. My parents for example, had to spend hours in the county and school libraries in order to find just a few reference sources for their school reports. Today I can search the internet and the whole world is available for me to research. I can search such noble institutions as the Library of Congress, The British Museum and the Louvre, or more obscure sites such as A Taste of France for recipes for my French classes.

However, we need to be careful. One wrong click (intentional or otherwise) can send us to dangerous sites as well. Content filtering helps, but no filter is full proof. People need to beware and be careful of what media they might be using.

I believe that On Demand media will move more to streaming media rather than to DVR and other personally recorded media. I don't think people want to have more devices, but instead more access to content. Commercials can be annoying, but they are the sponsor of the content and that allows for more and varied content. That in turn allows me to better pick and choose what I want to see and when I want to see it.

In fact, On Demand media has already allowed me to enhance my future college education. I can research colleges and universities like never before. I can watch their videos, see maps, view on-line testimonials, research costs and apply for scholarships to help fund my education.

On-Demand media is opening up whole new worlds to me!

Torn

Lately I've been thinking about my future and kind of what I want to do with my life. WHAT?! That's right I've been thinking about my future. This must come as a big surprise to most of you because you know my opinions on the future, and the lame things I want to do with my life, but its been on my mind a lot lately. Obviously I've thought about my future job, how I want to live my life, what I want to do with my life, career ext. All that normal future good stuff. The one thing though that has really been on my mind is the question of East Coast or West Coast.

East Coast: My heart has always been on the east coast. I went to the east coast as a child, my dad is from the east coast, part of me just loves it there, the history, the beauty, all of it. Plus many of my sports teams are east cost.

I mean look at that! They have REAL fall! They have REAL winter! Yeah some of their weather is a pain in the butt but I've never had pain in the butt weather (other than heat). 

West Coast: I live on the west coast now, I've grown up on the west coast. That means obviously my heart is here too because this is where I've grown up.

(that's ^ pretty much our winter AND summer)

I know that I don't have to make this decision now, I have a LONG time until I have to decide but I cant help but think about it. I'm torn, I've never been this concerned about something like this. East Coast or West Coast?

2 Year Goal Update #1

Remember this 2 year goal of me ridding my bike down to the Laguna area and hopefully making it a huge deal (considering its 300+ miles) to be able to meet McKayla Maroney? Well here's an update on how its going.

I've been doing OK, but not as great as I would like. I went through some stuff, and that made me take about a 2+ week break from training. That my friends adds up let me tell you that, but I have gotten back into it. I just started these past few days, so I'm working on it.

I've been really blessed to have people who are willing to support me with this goal. A few friends have asked if they could come along, I get text messages of encouragement when I tell people I'm exercising, when I ask for motivation they give it. Its just been a really good experience for myself. Heck the other day a friend told me that they were encouraged by what I was doing, and that made them start to want to get into better shape.

Thank you to all who have been helping me with this exercise, its been really important to me. I am truly blessed.                          

           

                                   

 

Mechanic Please

I have this theory about life, or well I guess you can call it an analogy. I think of life as a car, things run smoothly until you hit a rough patch and your car starts to mess up. At that point the car is broken (Meaning you as a person are kind of down, going through some sort of struggle, ext.) and you need to fix this car. Imagine your car is an older model and you know how to fix it. So what do you do when your car breaks? You try to fix it, BY YOURSELF. Obviously right?

Now you've tried fixing your car (getting out of this struggle by yourself), but you just cant. What do you do now after trying so hard and for so long to fix it yourself? That is when you call the mechanic (a friend, family member, ext) to help you fix it (get out of the struggle).

I've always been that person that tries to fix my car on my own because I think being able to look back and see that I fixed that all by myself is something to be proud of, but right now I think I'd rather call a mechanic and lose some of that pride than have to replace this car.

Amazing Friends

I know I talk about this a lot, about how I have the most amazing friends in the world. I just I cant get over it. I mean these people mean the world to me. I've never been really good at making and keeping close friends but these people I love and never ever want to leave me. I mean they have made the biggest impact in my life and I don't want to imagine my life without them. What got me thinking about this was that Phillip Phillips song thats popular right now, Home.

"Hold on, to me as we go as we roll down this unfamiliar road."
I mean we are all going down this "unfamiliar" road we call life, and it means the world to me to know that I have these friends that I can hold onto and lean on while going through all this, while going through life. I know that I have people that I can trust with everything, friends that I can lean on when things get rough. I mean we are all going through it, we might as well hold onto each other and go through it together.

"The trouble it might drag you down If you get lost, you can always be found"
I think that's what friends are supposed to be there to do, to find you when you're lost. I know for a fact that my friends HAVE and WILL do that whenever I need it (which seems to be a lot actually). I mean friends are always there for each other, and will be there when you're lost, they'll find you and bring you back.

"Just know you’re not alone Cause I’m going to make this place your home"
In my friendships we really aren't alone. We might feel like it at some points, but we aren't and we never will be. We stand by each other through all of it whether it be anger, sadness, or anything else, we are always there for each other. We often check up on each other to see how things are going. We aren't alone, and we make sure we know this.

I've been blessed with amazing people, that I know are always here for me, and I hope to God they know that I'm always here for them.

2 Year Goal

Right now I am trying to get into shape for a few reasons let me give you an idea of why I would do this crazy thing. This list is in order of least important (#1) to most important (#3).

1. Because I'm lazy and unhealthy and its good for me.
2. I want to go to the Olympics. Qualify at least. (Good goal for me right? Makes me laugh every time.)
3. So I can ride my bike 340 miles from my home town to Laguna Niguel, CA McKayla Maroney's home town.

This sounds crazy right?! Well, it is. But its one of my goals in life to me her. Its one of my crazy goals in life and to reach a crazy goal you have to do something crazy. I mean this isn't unreasonably crazy right? Maybe the meeting her part is kind of crazy but the bike ride isn't. Right? Please tell me I'm right? Plus I just want to meet her. Its not like I'm those creepy guys who want to marry her. I just want to meet her, have a conversation with her, take a picture, thank her for being an inspiration and maybe have a glass of water and a meal with her. Thats not an unreasonable request right?! I mean I'll have rode my bike 340 freaking miles in the freaking heat! Come on thats the least she can do for me!

To meet the crazy goal of meeting McKayla Maroney I have to do something crazy such as ride my bike 340 miles.

So McKayla Maroney watch out because in 2 years I'll be riding my bike down to Laguna Niguel to meet you.

**I'll keep you all updated throughout the training**

Olympic Obsession

You remember how I told you I LOVED the Olympics? Yeah? Well I still love them and every year the love  continues to grow and grow, and every year I find a new Olympian that I love. 2008 was Shawn Johnson, now this year, 2012 is, you guessed it, another gymnast. Its McKayla Maroney! Woo yeah! Pro vaulter, great at everything else, gold and silver medalist, has her own meme, and from interviews is just down right hilarious!

Now its not just her I like, I like all of them, heck I just like the sport of gymnastics in general. Every year though I pick a gymnast that I stand behind and hope for them to go to the Olympics in the next 4 years and right now that one is McKayla. (actually I'd love for most of them to go).

I don't do gymnastics and I thank god that I don't because I could never do any of that stuff. Mad props to all you gymnasts out there! But any way the goal of the Olympics is to "Inspire a generation." every year they do that. Every Olympic year they do that, and the team that does that for me is always the gymnastics team.

Thats all I wanted to say. I just wanted the world to know how much I love gymnastics, McKayla Maroney, and all the other amazing girls on the team. Thank you for once again inspiring a generation.

"Its not just like a puppy you want for Christmas...its the Olympics." -McKayla Maroney

Camp Camp Camp!!!

Hey guys, guess what this week was! That's right it was SUMMER CAMP! Woop-de-woop! I love camp, and its such a blessing to be able to go up, and make friends, but more importantly hang out with and grow closer to God. So let me just give you an overview of what we did each day because really that's not even the best part.

Sunday: We got to camp, ate dinner, hung out, went to chapel, cabin time ext.

Monday: Monday we split into our groups and had some team competitions which were a lot of fun.

Tuesday: Tuesday was pond day! We all went down to lower pond did some more team games, and had a ton of fun with that.

Wednesday: Wednesday was water day! It was also a fun time. We got to play with water balloons, play in the pool, just fun activities like that.

Thursday: Thursday was one of my favorite days. Thursday was MUD DAY!!! We all walked down to the mud pit and played volley ball, tug of war, and other games like that.

Now I'm going to get to the more important things like what I learned and the chapel time, things like that.

So every morning after breakfast we got up and did morning worship at the fire circle and after that we did a thing called Solo Time where we would split off and be by ourselves, read verses, reflect, pray, all that amazing stuff. Then in the evening we would go to chapel, do our worship, have a sermon, and go off to cabin time to reflect with your cabin mates about what we learned.

The theme for camp this summer was "Corner Stone." Our speaker Jay (Who I've heard speak for 2 years, and whos band played this winter and summer) talked about how God needs to be our corner stone, he talked about how if God wasn't our corner stone, the foundation on which we build our lives, then things will come crashing down. God needs to be the center of our life if he is going to be the corner stone.

We also talked about how each persons relationship with Christ is extremely and beautifully unique, but we also talked about how community is so needed. We are not meant to be alone. "Thinking the only team you're on is your own, that's a LIE." -Jay Kim. We learned that yes, our lives and relationships with God are so amazingly unique but that when all our uniqueness comes together we can become something awe inspiring.

Finally we talked about if Christ really is our corner stone we should be able to jump off this "ledge" to take these leaps that God is calling us to because with him we can do it, and even if we have fear about it, that fear will turn into an amazing exhilaration.

We also did a special thing called "Extinct." It was about things that we should be extinct in the world but are not (IE: Human Trafficking, hate, things like that). I and a few others went to the one on hate, and most of the others went to the one on human trafficking. This experience touched us so much more that I expected. In the seminar on hate we heard one of our main camp leaders stories about his friend who he always picked on. The one on human trafficking REALLY got to a lot of my friends and touched them so deeply. All of this got to all of us.

After the seminar my church went to this spot to look at the stars and reflect on this. Man did things get amazingly emotional. I say amazingly because what happened that Wednesday night was something that has never really happened with all of us before. We opened up to each other fully and completely. We had community and fellowship, and God worked through us in so many amazing ways that night.

Overall the week was not only amazingly fun but it was such a growing experience. We not only grew closer as a group but closer to God both individually and as a group. My hope is that all of us accept Jason's Challenge that now that we are back home we will NOT go back to our old ways but instead continue to hold each other accountable and grow closer and closer to God. I'm ready to C-O-M-Commit to not only each other but to God.

A Little More About Me

I just realized I have never really told you a lot about me, my personality, who I am, what I like, ext. I'll give you a little more info about who I am.

• I have problems with people. People and I have a bit of a love/hate relationship  
• I have a lot of secret obsessions, but I also have a lot of open obsessions. 
•  I'm a lot more emotional than I like to admit 
• My favorite color is green, but NOT lime green 
• I don't open up to people very often 
• I've been through a lot and I still go through a lot I just don't show it  
• I like to deal with things by myself. Its very rare for me to ask for help 
• I'm cocky but also extremely self conscious
• I don't have any special skills 
• I LOVE snicker doodles 
• I love kittens and puppies 
• I think Mac 'N Cheese can be eaten all day every day 
• Knock off brand can be just as good or better than name brand 
• I hate talking to people in person, I would much rather write a letter 
• I have the most amazing friends in the world and I never will be able to let them know how important they are
• I have strong opinions and I will let you know about them
• There is a lot more to me than you would think. You might think you know me but chances are you don't 

Olympic Love

If you didn't know I am a huge Olympic fan. I am literally obsessed. I remember at the 2008 Olympics I would stay up until 4 in the morning watching it. My headphones would be in, my light would be off, and I'd be glued to the Tv. I'm so stoked for these Olympics, but I do have some opinions.

Let's start with the opening. I totally support what London did this year, it showed their history and backstory and all that stuff. Cool that they are taking pride in their country. I though was not a huge fan of it. I thought it was a little confusing and not super interesting. Like I said though it was unique.

Next let me talk a little bit about swimming. I've always loved swimming, and I used to be a swimmer when I was younger so I have this unrealistic dream that I could have been there. My brother is a swimmer too so my family has a love for the event. This year the biggest swimmers are Michael Phelps like always, and Ryan Lochte. At this point I think Ryan has more potential than Michael. Yes, I did just say that. Let's face it though, Michael wasn't supposed to go to these Olympics, he didn't plan on coming, it was a last minute desicion (or in Olympic training time). I think Ryan has huge potential because he trained, and he came prepared. I'd love to see the head to head rivalry between them though.

Beach volleyball. I love beach volleyball and of course Misty May and Kerri Walsh are the team I love and the team to beat. They haven't lost a single game in their Olympic career. You think that's impressive? What if I told you they haven't lost a single set in their Olympic career. Haven't lost a single set?! Mind blown!!! They also weren't planning on coming back this year. I think Kerry got married and had a kid recently, but they came back. I still think they are the team to beat, but they won't breeze through as easily as they normally do.

Now gymnastics. Oh gymnastics I have a secret love for you. That was the main event that would keep me up until 3. I would focus on women's gymnastics. Shawn Johnson you amazing woman where have you gone? Why must you injure yourself in a skiing accident for your birthday?! I'm her #1 fan. I'm still extremely bitter about her not going, and Nastia Liukin isn't even going. Who am I supposed to root for now?! Oh thats right, "The Fab 5!" This year I've realized I have to get past my love for Shawn and find someone new. Maybe Jordyn Wieber. Who knows?

Olympics you are always dear to my heart, and I will continue to root and watch you. USA USA USA!!!! (And yes I did just write an entire super long blog about my Olympic love). USA USA USA!!!

Little Confused

So, I've been a little confused lately. I've been confused with the normal stuff, life, like everyone else. I've also been confused about what has been going on with me and some of my friends lately.

There has been some suspicion surrounding me and the state that I'm in right now, lots of conflicting ideas about how I've been doing and feeling. I just kind of want to clear the air about this because the worry some people have is much more than it should be so here is whats going on.

Yes, Jesus and I haven't been doing so hot lately, but that's normal and it happens to everyone. That's about it. I've been flustered with that and trying to deal with the people who are worried, trying to tell them that its nothing to worry about.

That's it, no big deal, do not worry, people have taken things the wrong way. I am fine.

Weekend Recap

So in my last post I talked about "Welcome Week"  Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, and Thursday. That means in this post I will talk about Friday, Saturday, and Sunday! This one might be a little crazy because we did a lot those few days.

Friday: Friday started off with me waking up to go buy a new phone. I went to go visit a friend who is cleaning out their abandoned for rent house. Later that day she came over, we dug for dinosaurs using one of the random toys she found, we swam, we watched TV, and we hung out. Later we rode our bikes down to the Farmers Market to meet up with the rest of the youth group. It was a ton of fun just to all hang out and wonder around.

Saturday: OH MARTHA! Let me tell you about Saturday! Saturday started off with me waking up at 6 so that I can get ready to go to Magic Mountain!!! It was so much fun. It was extremely hot and tiring but it was so worth it. We got on quite a few rides considering how many people there were. We got on Tatsu, Scream, Colossus, Goliath, X2, and the swings. We actually got stuck on Goliath on the way up to the huge drop. Plus, even though I've rode X2 many times the fire has never worked, but this time it did! It was just over all an amazing day filled with fun and friends.

Sunday: Girl what chu know about Sunday?! I actually don't know a lot because I was so tired I had no clue what was going on. All I remember was me sitting in church not paying attention, us trying to figure out where to go for lunch, Jamie both sleeping on me and also falling into my lap as John attacks her, me saying very awkward things, a sandwich, sitting in a Mexican restaurant with my best friends, and getting ice cream for National Ice Cream Day!

It was an amazing week, and an amazing weekend, I hope that the rest of the summer continues to be this great!

Now enjoy some more photos:

                 

    

Amazing Week With Amazing Friends

So, I have had one of the most eventful weeks I've had in a long time. This week at church is our "Welcome Week" where we welcome all the new incoming 7th graders and Freshman. That means this week is full of fun events and outings with all the people I love!

Monday was a pretty uneventful day actually, I slept, ate a lot of food (Otter Pops to be more specific), slept some more. I did end up having a friend come over and watch Pretty Little Liars with me, a show which many of us are addicted to now.

Tuesday was calm for the most part. More sleep, more eating (Otter Pops again), hung out with my youth pastor, met our friends kitten, and got ready for some friends to come over. Later that evening some of my best friends came over to watch Masterchef, a show I didn't mean to get them addicted to. After the show ended we hung out and tried to go to this new grilled cheese place but our friend lied about the closing time! Its ok though, we went over to Sonic, and the guy was extremely rude to me. It was a very relaxed and enjoyable evening.

Wednesday consisted of me waking up much earlier than I usually do so that I could go on our 2nd Annual 7/11 Bike Ride! We all meet up and ride our bikes to some of the 7/11's around us for free Slurpee's. After the bike ride we went back to the church office and hung out for a long time, went to Starbucks and continued to hang out. Later that evening I went back to the church office for a night of games and meeting new people! Then a friend spent the night and we watched more Pretty Little Liars.

Thursday, or today, consisted of more sleep, more Otter Pops, and more Pretty Little Liars. Then at dinner time one of my amazing friends came over, I made her dinner, and we just hung out. Then a bunch of us went bowling! I must say some of us are very good, and some of us are very bad, but we are a group of good sports who can make fun of ourselves and laugh at our horribleness. After bowling we all went out to dinner and hung out for hours just talking, telling jokes, and singing (Which we do every time we go out, its required.) After that a few of us went to Teazer's which was a lot of fun just to hang out and talk.

I'm so stoked for the rest of the week! Bike ride tomorrow (we love to bike) Magic Mountain on Saturday, and church on Sunday! More excitement awaits.

Taken Advantage Of Friendships And Moving

So a lot has been going on over the past few weeks to a month, and its kind of driving me a bit crazy. Yesterday I found out that a very good friend of mine was moving. Over the past year I have had 2 people move, 1 attempt to move, a 4th getting ready to move, and countless amounts of people fall out of my life. Its been really difficult for me because all of these people are the people I'm closest to.

Funny how this works, funny how God works. I don't know if this is his sense of humor, or what but it drives me crazy. Over the past I don't know, six months maybe I've been very very very out of my faith, and my relationship with it has been,  in my opinion, very dull and boring. The other day I asked him to shake things up, give me some excitement, make me remember why I believe what I believe. (I feel like that's a horrible thing to think but emotionally being where I was it made sense at the time). Then that happened, I found another very important person in my life was leaving. 

All this movement though got me thinking. (Surprise right?! I was actually thinking, and thinking of something other than food, sleep, and Lauren Conrad). Any way, I was thinking about how important these people and my friends are to me, and it made me realize that I have taken advantage of them. It made me realize that I don't think the people I care about most, and love most know how much I actually love and care about them. I take advantage of their friendships by doing nothing to show how much they mean to me. Last night I was very emotional, about the whole moving thing but I got a phone call, a phone call that I really needed. It was a good friend of mine calling to tell me that she had an amazing day with me, and it made her happy that all the crap that had gone on earlier in the year was the last thing on her mind. She took the time to actually call me, and have a conversation with me being totally and completely open about it, and that is something I almost never do. Funny how one thing can make you realize so many other things.

I think this, once again, is Gods way of telling me to get out of my comfort zone. It happened last time someone moved, and its happening again. He's telling me "Hey you wanted me to shake things up in your life? Well I can shake them up bad. Trust me It'll be good though." Its time for me to get out of my comfort zone, be more in depth, emotional, and loving towards my friends, and trust that all the crazy shit thats happening right now will eventually bring my faith into a better place.

Mountain Trip!

"Oh Yosemite how I love you so.
 Everywhere I look I see the glorious work of the Lord"

Today a bunch of my friends and I went up to Yosemite to hike Vernal Falls. It was a cute little girls bonding type trip.  It was so much fun! I got to hang out with my best friends in the entire world and be at one of the most beautiful places ever. It was just amazing. Let me just tell you that the hike is not an easy hike. Its very steep and uphill but I survived!!!

I love going to the mountains. Its just so easy to see Gods amazing work, and all the beauty he created. Its just super mind blowing. Plus to be able to experience that with my best friends...Even better!

"Yosemite with some very important ladies :)"

Its a really great experience, I recommend that you do it sometime eventually.

VBS 2012 Day 3

Its day 3! Time has gone by so quickly, I only have 1 more day with these kids. Today one of our kids didn't come but we got a new one so that was good.

We had a lot of fun today. Bible study was good, they talked a little more than usual. Then snack time, thats always great. We had craft time after that, and they really like the crafts. Then movie time, which once again they were really shy, and us leaders had to answer most of the questions but that was ok. Last we had the game. Today was a water game, and at first they didn't want to play with the water but about 5 min. in they were soaking wet!

Its really good to see them come out of their shells. A lot of the kids are talking to each other, to us leaders, giving us high fives, and hugs, its really great! Today for no reason one of the little girls came running up to me and gave me a hug and her grandpa said to me "I think she's really warming up to you." It was just an amazing feeling to think that those kids are getting used to and trusting me.

Every day they have a new theme and todays was "No matter what people do trust God" and the kids never really echo the theme when they are asked what it was, but today I saw a lot of our kids say it so that was great! Its been amazing to see all of them grow over the past 3 days, and I really hope I see more of that tomorrow.

VBS 2012 Day 2

So its day 2 of VBS and its going great! The kids are a little more out of their shells than they were yesterday (They weren't super shy yesterday). Its kind of funny actually. During Bible Time they are kind of shy, during snack they are great, during craft they are great, during the movie time you can't even get them to say a word, then during game time they are all over the place!

They are really some great kids. All of them are starting to warm up to each other and us leaders. We watch this movie that I think the kids enjoy, and its about a Chipmunk that tells us no matter *Insert theme of the day* Trust God! This might sound really lame, but I think that movie is hilarious, and none of the kids do.

Anyway, its been a good 2 days, 2 more to go, and I know there is so much more to come!

VBS 2012 Day 1

This year I am helping out with Vacation Bible School for the second year in a row. This should be a surprise because of my love hate relationship with kids (I actually really love them...a lot). Once again I got the youngest group of kids, our group name is the Butterfly's (So cute right?!).

This year it is a group of 5, and all of them are girls! Its really great! They are hands down some of the cutest kids I've ever seen. At first they were super shy, but once we started snack and games they came completely out of their shells! Some of the kids in my group this year I actually had last year, so I can kind of predict what they will be like.

Once again its only the first day and I have already fallen head of heels for these kids. The excitement I have for the rest of the week is indescribable and not even funny. I love my partners, I love the kids, I love all of it! I'm so excited to see God work in these kids and hopefully in me and all the other leaders too!

Summer 2012!

So, its summer time and I'm very happy. Its actually been summer for about a week for me, but thats ok, I can still blog about it. I love the summer, not so much the weather but more the fact that I don't have to do anything but be lazy and hang out with friends. I want to start off by talking about what I've done so far this summer.

I'm only a week into summer and I've already: gone to the beach, spent more than 1 night at a friends house, went to a party, played Frisbee, gone swimming, stayed out late, invited friends over, and eaten countless Otter Pops. Tonight though, I stayed up late and looked back at last summer and how amazing it was! Hands down last summer was my favorite summer of all. I honestly don't know if any summer could be better than last summer, but you never know.

This summer I have a bit of a bucket list that I would hopefully like to complete at some point or at least cross off most things. Here is the list:

1. Go to the beach. CHECK! Ideally I would like to go at least once but we'll see how the rest of the summer works out. 

2. Go to the Mountains I like just going up to the lake and spending a day there. 

3.Participate in #impulseWednesday  I made up a day called impulse Wednesday, its one day out of the week (Wednesday) Where you just do something impulsive. 

4. Tone my arms. Yeah, I'm weak sauce and I would like to tone my arms this summer...

5. Get tan. Yeah, I'm pale too

6. Midnight Premire BATMAN HERE I COME!!!!!!! 

7. Bike Ride. My bike gang hasn't gone on an official summer bike ride yet! Must happen soon! 

8. Picnic. I've been wanting to go on a picnic, like a good picnic since March! 

9. Look At The Stars. Yeah, sounds lame but I really want to just hang out with friends and look at the stars. 

10. Sunset /Sunrise Either or would be totally fine, I just want to watch them with someone. 

11. Hang Out With Friends. This one is probably the most important one to me. All I want to do this summer is hang out with my friends as much a possible.I want to surround myself with people I love and people who love me, and just spend the summer being with them. 

I'm super excited to see how this summer goes. I'm going to have a complete list on one of those tab things up at the top of my page (right underneath my title) so to see what I have planned and what I have done, go and check it out. SUPER STOKED!!!! 

People Problem

I have this problem with people where when I start to get close to them everything falls apart. That has happened to me a lot lately in the past year and especially in the past few months. It seem like the people I love and don't want to lose the most are always the people I tend to lose. I'm one of those people that blames everything on myself so to me all of this is my fault, everything that has happened to make me lose them...my fault losing them is my fault, and I beat myself up for it. I want to stop losing people and part of me feels like I should just stop meeting people because I know I'll just lose them.