Taken Advantage Of Friendships And Moving

So a lot has been going on over the past few weeks to a month, and its kind of driving me a bit crazy. Yesterday I found out that a very good friend of mine was moving. Over the past year I have had 2 people move, 1 attempt to move, a 4th getting ready to move, and countless amounts of people fall out of my life. Its been really difficult for me because all of these people are the people I'm closest to.

Funny how this works, funny how God works. I don't know if this is his sense of humor, or what but it drives me crazy. Over the past I don't know, six months maybe I've been very very very out of my faith, and my relationship with it has been,  in my opinion, very dull and boring. The other day I asked him to shake things up, give me some excitement, make me remember why I believe what I believe. (I feel like that's a horrible thing to think but emotionally being where I was it made sense at the time). Then that happened, I found another very important person in my life was leaving. 

All this movement though got me thinking. (Surprise right?! I was actually thinking, and thinking of something other than food, sleep, and Lauren Conrad). Any way, I was thinking about how important these people and my friends are to me, and it made me realize that I have taken advantage of them. It made me realize that I don't think the people I care about most, and love most know how much I actually love and care about them. I take advantage of their friendships by doing nothing to show how much they mean to me. Last night I was very emotional, about the whole moving thing but I got a phone call, a phone call that I really needed. It was a good friend of mine calling to tell me that she had an amazing day with me, and it made her happy that all the crap that had gone on earlier in the year was the last thing on her mind. She took the time to actually call me, and have a conversation with me being totally and completely open about it, and that is something I almost never do. Funny how one thing can make you realize so many other things.

I think this, once again, is Gods way of telling me to get out of my comfort zone. It happened last time someone moved, and its happening again. He's telling me "Hey you wanted me to shake things up in your life? Well I can shake them up bad. Trust me It'll be good though." Its time for me to get out of my comfort zone, be more in depth, emotional, and loving towards my friends, and trust that all the crazy shit thats happening right now will eventually bring my faith into a better place.